Wednesday 29 February 2012

Sweet Validation.

Days like this make it feel like all the hard work, sweat and emotional growth are worth it in every single way. I've had days lately where I just didn't see it, looking in the mirror and just being unsatisfied with what I see.It happens to so many of us to see ourselves in distorted ways despite most people telling us we look good! It's a psychological issue that I have dealt with most of my life, even when I was at a lesser weight. I think that most of the time we forget to look at how far we've come instead of where we want to be. 

In the last  weeks I've had 3 pairs of pants fall apart from wear. Pant shopping has never been my favorite thing to do, even when I go with only that in mind, I tend to get frustrated with fit and come home with shirts and underwear instead. Well now, I didn't really have much of a choice! I went to a second hand shop yesterday and again wasnt happy with fit. I found pants that fit very well, but most were boot cut and in my mind just disproportionate my body. Did I mention I was picky about pants? 

I spent the day with my sister-in-law and 7 day old nephew (cutest baby everr) and we passed by a shop I used to go to all the time. I mentioned needed pants and she immediately offered me some for my birthday. Long story short, I found 2 pairs that fit PERFECTLY, and bonuuuus they're a size 7!!!!!

Ahhhh sweeeetttt validationnnnn. Since my goal is to be a size 5 right now, this is awesome awesome news for me and just gave me that extra motivation to kick my own ass and keep working harder and harder. Training this week has been great! I'll write about it in my next post as I've changed a few things up. 


Moral of the story? Keep pushing it. Yes, it hurts. Yes, there will be days where you literally have to beat yourself threw your workout. But! IT. IS. WORTH. EVERY. SECOND. Never give up.

Monday 27 February 2012

Positive thinking: How about some major changes?

I think that the number one thing that determines whether you will be successful or not is planning ahead. I am definitely a culprit of having issues in that department. Going raw isn't something that most people do overnight, althoug some ahve. It necessitates organization in many areas. Like ALWAYS having ripe high cal fruits around, like mangoes, bananas or dates. I made that mistake a gazillion times, might make it again a few more, but hey I am only human and the biggest thing I care about is that I am always learning and improving.

This past week has been a roller-coaster ride. Some things happened that I never thought would and I've been dealing with some massive emotional growth through it all. It sucks royally, but I've found that I can forgive so much easier than I used to, and that helps so much. When something ends, we tend to always dwell on the ending part instead of the new beginning, sometimes because it seems kinda scary. But I've found that looking towards new possibilities and keeping in mind that my personal dreams haven't changed, just maybe the way some of them will work out. Life is a crazy thing, and there are so many things to be discovered. I think that my journey towards raw has enabled me to grow so much emotionally that I can deal with events that would have had me crumbling in the past.

Positive thinking can get you to places you may have thought impossible! I've really seen the effects of it now and wow it is amazing! There is ALWAYS a way to see things in that light. That being said, anothing that I've discoverd that might be obvious to some, is that it's ok not to be ok for a bit. I've been having ups and downs and letting myself live both without barriers. The healing process is so much easier this way.

That being said, I didnt exercise exactly as I would have wanted to. I did keep busy and moved around alot, went for walks and such, but focused on letting myself heal and rest as I needed.

I am feeling on the better side today, and will definitely be getting back into my routines. I am craving it!

I also just bought a book called Could it be B12? and am loving it so far, I'll write a post about it as soon as I am done to give my review!

Smash it everyday guys!!

Monday 20 February 2012

Sometimes, you just gotta kick yourself in the ASS.

This past week wasn't my finest moment, I didn't achieve any of the goals I set out to. BUT there is some light in this tunnel.

I've been wanting to update on the whole maca root use and now is the perfect time. I took it for about 2 weeks before I decided it just wasn't for me. I had bought a raw powdered from of it as opposed to the gelatinized version (no gelatin involved, it's just the term they use to say that they took out all the starches) because I really don't believe in processing a food more than just drying it. I stopped taking it because it was giving me massive heartburn. So end of story for that one. Bonus: it was a lesson learned as well, but I am glad I tried it nonetheless.

I have found another solution since, and I've only been doing it for about 4-5 days, but already I can see a difference. Last week I was so exhausted and moody, my typical PMS self. Once I started taking b12 in higher doses (I'm taking 2x 5000mg sublinguals right now), I noticed a HUGE difference in mental clarity, mood and energy levels. They still aren't perfect, but I have not felt this good a few days away from my menses start date in over a year. It's a beautiful thing!

I recently read an article about b12 and how it affected this individual's energy levels and got rid of his depression. I've been prone to depression for as long as I can remember, and now it seems like it will never come back, as long as I keep up with the b12, at least until my body has completely healed itself. I knew I had an issue with b12 because of past bad habits and had been taking it on and off on a regular basis, but the dosage just wasn't high enough to truly make a difference. I am not one for supplements (and I work in a store filled with them) but in this case I definitely make an exception since it really is something that affects most people in this sterile and stressful society.

Other news, I finaly finished my health and fitness vision board!

So goals for this week: 100% fruit fueled, at least 3 workouts. I'm setting a smaller goal simply because it will motivate me to do more.

Have a great week! Keep it real ;)

Monday 13 February 2012

Finding Solutions: An answer to my symptoms: Candida

Lately I had been thinking that I could not put my finger on what was the true cause of most of my health issues. I knew my symptoms and I was seriously growing frustrated with most of them because I just couldn't solve then with what I was doing. I thought I was eating healthy enough, not perfect but I was getting there, and I was back to consistently exercising, yet I saw 0 results, and this game has been going on for a very very long time, I'd say about 2.5 years or more. I was constantly doing great but getting frustrated because it seemed like nothing was happening, even after months of efforts. I absolutely understand that the journey to best health is a long one, but also just wanted an ounce of progress to let me know I was on the right path.



Now I definitely know why all that was happening. It came in a total euraka moment at work. I was speaking to my coworker (I work in a health food store) and we we're discussing a random topic when she said" You know that creepy feeling, like a mosquito running across your skin, which is a symptom of candida issues?" I didn't know, and I had had that symptom for so long that I just considered it me being paranoid! So I went to look up a list of symptoms:


  • Vaginal Yeast Infection

  •  Constant fatigue

  •  Brain "fog" -hard to focus or even think straight.

  •  Oral Thrush (a white film on tongue or in the mouth)

  • Bad breath, foul taste in mouth

  •  Abdominal pain (intestinal Candida)

  •  Bloating and indigestion

  • Increasing allergies to foods (gluten or celiac problems can be a direct result of Candida overgrowth)

  • Constant craving for something sweet!

  •  Joint pain with arthritis-like symptoms

  •  Chronic sinus drainage -which antibiotics don't help!

  •  Weight gain (or loss) and the inability to change it. 

  •  Fungus on the finger or toe-nails

  •  Itching, red eyes

  •  Candida Skin rashes on the body (eczema, atopic dermatitis)

  •  Candida Rash inside the ears or around the groin area

  •  Anal, penile or vaginal itching

  •  Hair loss

  • Vision problems

  • Depression from feeling so low and bogged down all the time.



  • The highlighted ones are the ones that I'v experienced. Come to think of it, I've probably had candida issues for years, but never knew it. The worst part is, I know about candida, I talk about it with clients all the time, I've read about peoples experiences with them, I knew some of the symptoms, but obviously not all of them. I had always thought when reading or talking about it, that I didn't have that problem and that I was really happy I didn't! SO now I have to deal with it head on because I really can't wait for allllll those symptoms to disappear.

    Candida is basically a yeast that is present in our bodies, it has a place and is good when at healthy levels. But many people have issues with overgrowth, where it flares up because of various causes (like the overuse of antibiotics, use of contraceptive pill, high metal toxicity in the blood, etc) (I am actually unsure of my cause because I've never used antibiotics, but have been on the pill) Most common "cures" would have you cutting out all sugar, because that's what candida feeds on. So there are tons of candida cleanses and special extremely restrictive diets that claim to bring it under control, but usually once the cleanse is over, it comes back with a vengeance and so begins a viscous cycle.  The actual cause of overgrowth in most cases in too much fat in the blood which causes sugar to linger there as well, when the body wants it to be transferred to cells as quickly as possible. Your body doesn't like having sugar hanging about in you blood so when this happens candida flares up and eats it all up. The true solution to candida is to eat a very low fat diet, like 80/10/10. Keeping your fat levels low is what will give long term relief of all candida issues, it's really that simple!

    My plan of action? Going 100% raw of course! Everyone I know of that went raw with prior candida issues had them solved in no time. I've struggled with it in the past and I may still, but now that I have the knowledge of what wrong with my body, I know that it will make it that much easier to keep my resolve. Not having cooked foods is minor compared to the benefits it will give me!

    My training in the last week wasn't as good as I would have wanted it to be, I was fighting a terrible cols thats been lurking in my household for the past 2 weeks and my body was telling me to rest it out, so that's exactly what I did. I still got 3 workouts in though!


    February 5th
    Running in place
    2 min
    2 min
    2 min
    Crunches
    100
    100
    100
    Butt lifts
    100
    100
    100
    Plank
    60 sec
    60 sec
    60 sec


    February 6th
    4K run/walk in 30 mins (4.75 total)
    High Knees
    100
    170
    150
    Squats
    75
    100
    60
    Crunches
    50
    75
    100
    Lunges
    50
    50
    62
    Push-ups(knees)
    20
    17
    20
    Plank
    83sec
    60sec
    60 sec

    February 7th
    off

    February 8th
    Off

    February 9th
    K walk/run in mins
    High Knees
    75
    100
    100
    Squats
    50
    50
    50
    Crunches
    86
    60
    60
    Chest fly
    20
    20
    20
    Chest Press
    20
    20
    20

    February 10th
    off

    February 11th
    Off

    In other news, I will be moving in 6 weeks so I'll get some good exercise while packing and sorting through. We actually get the keys 15 days before we move so that we can get everything sorted without to much rush! This week I'll be concentrating in getting at least a 20 minute good sweat everyday to get myself out of this tired funk. 

    Making an effort everyday t move is better than staying on the couch! So my advice to myself and to anyone trying to motivate yourself is that every small effort counts, so if you do a 10 min workout instead of nothing, then you are ahead of the pack!

    Monday 6 February 2012

    Fitness Update!

    So I posted a while ago that I was starting a 30 day fitness challenge with BodyRockTV. Well I did their workouts for about a week and then decided to change it up and do it differently. I love their workouts, but it can be complicated sometimes because you have to watch the videos before working out and write everything down. Also, sometimes their moves get really complicated and there is usually 12. So when I have the time beforehand they are an awesome burn, but just too time consuming otherwise. I took a look at their older videos and they seem damn awesome and somewhat less complicated, especially the time or rep challenges which I want to do a few of!

    So this is what last week looked like:


    January 30th
    Jumping jacks
    40
    50
    48
    Squats
    40
    40
    40
    pushups
    20
    20
    20
    Crunches
    50
    50
    60
    Lunges
    40
    50
    50
    Plank
    50 sec
    35 sec
    50 sec

    January 31st
    High Knees
    100
    70
    90
    Squats
    60
    70
    50
    Bicycle crunches
    100
    100
    86
    Hindu Pushups
    10
    10
    6
    Plank-Jumps
    23
    20
    20

    February 1st
    5k walk/run in 45 mins
    Running in place
    1 min
    1 min
    1.5 min
    Squats
    100
    75
    75
    Crunches
    50
    70
    50
    Dips
    25
    21
    20
    Butt lifts
    65
    70
    85

    February 2nd
    4k walk/run in 35 mins + 1k walk each way to work
    Running in place
    2 min
    2 min
    2 min
    Squats
    100
    100
    100
    Pushups
    15
    14
    9
    Crunches
    60
    60
    50
    Lunges
    126
    72
    50

    February 3rd
    Jumping Jacks
    55
    50
    45
    Squats
    100
    75
    75
    Crunches
    70
    50
    55
    Pushups
    12
    10
    10

    February 4th
    Day OFF

    I'm going to be taking it to the next level this week because even though I  feel that I was pushing myself physically and all but I'm not feeling the pain of it the next day like I remember my body feeling when I used to work out this much. I'm thinking it means that I can push harder, which is definitely the plan for this week. 

    I'm feeling great though! I am at a better fitness level than I thought I was and that is a great feeling! 

    I am looking into doing my first 5k run on March 17th. I want to get my time down to close to 30 mins and that means doing a ton more running in the next few weeks! I run/walk a 5k everyday but my time is regularly around 45 mins. I haven't been running consistently though and I think I can definitely hit my goal!

    Now I have to get back to it!! Have a great week! PUSH IT EVERYDAY!